The Wannabe Economist

My day actually started at 2.30pm. That helps to explain why i am not sleeping at this time.

Didn’t do much today. A bit of AE assignment. Shopping for good half of the day. Bumped into Gaik, Dennis, Alexis, William, Big Terence and Alice. Friends and alumus of JJSalsarengue performance team. Had early dinner at NYDC. Watched “The Quiet” and “Long Kiss Goodnight“.

Notice that in whichever order i try to list down something, school work will always come up at the top of the list. At Eric and Elise’s wedding, Gaik Leng enquired the reasons for quitting the team. And i could be frank because only the few of us around. I cannot think of something else. I can’t really say it’s girlfriend, though it played a part. Even so, i would say it’s not that significant to drive me to the decision. In the past i have always make it to training no matter what Mrs Chongky would say. The decision ultimately has to do with school work.

Last semester was heavy with 6 modules. Though i always play it cool whenever the discussion ventures into this topic, taking 6 mods isn’t easy. I couldn’t focus well on studies, and needless to say that explains that C-. I cannot find any excuse for that. Though the prof marking everything on a flat curve is something i cannot deny. He even admitted openly to my friends who went to see him. I could have focus and done much better. I know i do have the ability. Just that i couldn’t put my full attention on school work.

So this sem i want to cut down on the distractions. Having less commitment would help. This is my last sem in year 2, and i am going to graduate at the end of year 3. Compared to most in school, i do not have the luxury of time to rest, play, do more internship and go for exchange. I only have two summers to do my internship, and i have wasted the last one on one that is not too fruitful. This time round i need to embark on a significant internship to boast my chance at job application before graduation. And job application would not be easy for me considering the careers i am contemplating.

So team training is the first one to go. I don’t wish to go calculating the exact amount of time i had devoted to training. Let’s just leave it at heavy. Last sem coincides with the Singapore International Salsa Festival (Not the other festival organised ONLY by one organisation). 3 training sessions per week is not light. Plus the saturday is a good half day. Physically tiring and mentally draining.

I cannot see putting myself through the same thing again. At least not this sem. Frankly i have never thought about leaving the team since i joined it more than 1 years ago. I have experienced so much with everyone on the team. It is more sad for me to say goodbye, which i didn’t do officially.

Seeing everyone at the wedding brought about a mixed feeling. Longing, guilt, joy, disappointment. Seeing everyone this afternoon brought back the same mixed feeling. I am happy to see them. But at the same time i could feel the distance when we talk. I could feel the barrier of being an outsider now.

I miss dancing. I want to dance. But what is the point of going for training when i cannot convince myself of letting go of all the concerns about school work during those time in the studio? I would not be able to enjoy myself.

The same actually applies when i am out shopping. The constant worrying never stops.

I’m not sure whether to say that i am too engrossed, or i’m just finding excuses. This break is good for me. I slowed down, and re-examine everything. I am trying to work out everything, finding that meaning and purpose and all. I hope i will be back in no time.

In the meanwhile, let me go do some ballet at SDT. Something new might just bring in a fresh perspective.

Heard it on “So You Think You Can Dance 2″. This afternoon i heard it again on the radio.

And it got stuck.

I think i slept for 12 hours. And i woke up with a strange feeling, hoping to be back at the time when i ran and workout everything other day. But i touched my belly and i realised i’m still the same old fat fei fei.

Neh said i’m fei fei the overweight over-achiever.

Nah lah where got over-achieve? I’m cracking my mind out to write the incredible resume and cover letter to apply for a part time job with a consulting company. Because there really isn’t much to booast about for me. I probably don’t have a lot of qualities they are looking for, and i suspect when the consulting companies come to our school to recruit fresh grads, i won’t even receive the invitational emailer from OCS.

Jess reminded me last night that i was supposed to clear my climbing instructor assessment in feb. I had unconsciously pushed that back into may because i stopped training. Not climbing anymore, no longer breathing the climber’s air anymore.

Gravical is on next fri. And i won’t be attending it because i want to jack up my ability in business cases at Cognitare. My role at securing sponsorship for Gravical is only considerably successfuly considering the amount of sponsorship value for a first time event only in school. I can’t say that i am good at selling ice to eskimo anymore. The sponsorship deals only come about because the contact points are my good friends in salsa and climbing. I suspect if not for our friendship, no one would push for my cause and i will probably end up with only FIT sponsorship, which in theory they will be supportive because they had a deal to build our school’s rock wall previously.

So that’s me. Nothing goes well and at all time low emtionally.

Mrs Chongky and i are going on Pelepah trek later this month.

Looking back, i have been rather involved in SMUX for the last 3 sems, minus the summer when i was coped up with internship and instructing classes and canoe polo. What i remembered very clearly about SMUX objective is providing a service, on top of all those listed and mentioned times again during major SMUX event.

When i was organising canoe polo clinic and set up a booth, i ensure that i speak to my potential “clients” in my best mannered tone so that they would feel welcomed into the big SMUX family. When i was at the clinic i also try my best to involve everyone. Same for horseriding camp at UTM.

Last saturday we couldn’t control ourselves, and we ended up at Sakae Sushi supper buffet again. Just earlier that day we had lunch at Sakae.

No recording breaking this time. We only managed 35 colour plates (meaning 35 of those $1.90 orders, need to state clearly before people like Neh thinks that we accumulated 35 plates over buffet) and 2 red plate (woo hoo).

We is the love scallop with rice.

Or without rice.

As everyone says, Singaporean CANNOT serve food. There’s this girl (yea girl because she looks under 20) who served us when we came in. So i thought to speed things up, i order from her. And so i just go on and order our first round of food.

Halfway through my order, she paused and told us, “unfinished food will be charged”.

KNN! You cannot eat doesn’t mean everyone cannot eat ok. And we barely order 15 plates of food. Of course i was taken aback by that comment. It’s either you want a) mention it as we order buffet or b) shut up and don’t give me that fucking attitude.

So i got quite pissed off and many a time i was tempted to ask her to clear all my plates.

And Mrs Chongky’s hand must shake when take photo of me.

^%)(*&#%

All she knows is only look pretty.

But looking pretty has nothing to do with looking at the ceiling while you eat right.

Service was bad that night. Probably due to the full capacity even though it’s damn late for dinner and too heavy for supper. No one clear our plates right after we started.

Lucky no one did. I wanted to accumulate for that waitress to clear.

Other waitress: Hi sir can i clear these?

Me: *Place hand on the top of the plates*  NO!

But someone did stole my miso soup bowl and left the cover behind. -_-”

My friend, Heather, set up this site with her friend to sell handmade accessories. These are made by themselves and can customize any request you might have.

http://therosebox.blogspot.com/

You might have seen the mint M&M in Liberty Market / The Market Place / Candie Empire.

I just got one of the HK edition one. From Jess who went there over the New Year for holidays.

She doesn’t know my obsession with mint yet.

I spent the last two days playing True Crime: Street of LA on Xbox. It’s an old game, released in 2003. But it’s fun nevertheless, considering how long i have been deprived of gaming on video console. I have never own one set of such stuff. The only games i played were either on my old school Gameboy or PC.

Good news is, my current gaming craze is over, after spending half a day on Sunday and the entire midnight of Monday on the game. I admit i didn’t figure everything out. The wonderful internet allowed me to find almost everything that is slightly less current. Not surprisingly i found the guide to the game.

Mrs Chongky’s brother has a new Xbox 360 and he owns the hottest game Gears of War. But probably his tv has something against me playing, cause everytime i tried the screen is always in black and white. How do you see an enemy like that?

Claressa and i are looking at joining Congnitare Case Challenge. Now we need 2 more people to form the team of 4. If you are keen do let me know.

Thank you.

Also looking for one very good marketing person to join the Loreal Branding competition.