Strangely i have lost quite a bit of my appetite these days. Like Mon i had only breakfast and other than 1 tou sa bian the next week was dinner at 11ish at night.
Today worse. I think i had milk, fruits, lots of ice-cream (to be exact, half small tub of durian, 1 sesame potong, 1 vanilla cup and 1 chocolate stick ice-cream) for breakfast and lunch!
Something is wrong with me. I know it.
I’m too eagar to lose weight. To drop that fei fei / elephant / fei loh / ah fat tag.
I’m too impatient too. I can’t stand inefficiency. A lot of things could be done with my time only if all processes are efficient. Which is obviously not the case. Inefficiency plus blur, ultimate way to burn my precious~ time.
I hate comparsion. All i ask for is stop comparing me and so and so. Last time in school was my addiction to computer games / tvĀ / having fun with friends and not studying as hard as my bro is. Then NS is i spend so much money against the little that my bro is spending in school. And now what. I drink coffee and caffine kills brain cell so i’m going to screw up my next exams while Mrs Chongky is going to kick my ass?
Height also compare. Size also compare. Eating / sleeping habit also compare. Everything that i’m no good also compare. Eh how come don’t compare my devotion (previously) to gym and running? How come don’t compare my determination to do things in life? How come don’t compare my development of personal interest?
Come on, for God’s sake i’m a frigging 22 years old.