The Wannabe Economist

As we move on in life, priority changes.

Inevitable.

I have come to a stage where i should seriously give some real push in my studies. A budding economist i am, but i am sad to say that i don’t quite know economics. If you ask me about dance or maybe finance, i might be able to tell you more. But economics, i’m afraid not.

Wait a sec… i think i’m rather ok with game theory.

The thought of going to yr 3 in less than a year scares me. I strive to embark on senior thesis then, but judging from the state of my studies, i might as well do another 2 modules instead. At least i would graduate with a much better GPA. There simply no way for me to say i want to do senior thesis when i myself know that i’m in no state to do it.

I have been putting thoughts into my life. I try to weight things. There are just something that i don’t see good reason for me to continue doing. Things that i spent so many hours into it and get little in return. Since i began with the understanding that the returns are bad, i can’t complain. But i would expect better treatment.

It’s obvious to myself and many other that i get to do so much not because i am well-liked. But rather my implicit partner in crime is well-liked. Anything she gets i get a share. That’s how i get to where i am today.

Frankly i am rather sick of this. Not because i detest living under the shadow of someone. But i seriously think i deserve better treatment.

Not like this. Where i wasn’t informed of a lot of things. Knowing how thoughtful they can be.